Dinner yesterday was spaghetti squash again..and I fixed Dave sausage and mashed potatoes. I was mentally getting ready for another milk day-- my weight had pretty much been the same-- and I had started taking psillium husks--- for obvious reasons.
I went shopping-- a not too frequent pastime of mine ---at Boscovs. Tried on a size 14 dress and it was too small. Got a ways to go! Bought towels and rugs for the bathroom and a giant globe fountain spray for Zoe. And some purses that were on sale that would make nicL gifts.
Came home and watched TV and Before I knew it, it was 11 oclock -past the witching hour for my diet. I went to bed, and lay there. My legs were shooting pain from physical therapy. By about 1 PM my stomach was growling fiercly and I was feeling the blood sugar drain from my brain -- my last meal had been 8 hours earlier. I started worrying about what my milk day would be like on zero sleep. I decided to get up and have a cup of tea with honey, the legal rememdy for LBS, hoping that would put me to sleep. I was surprised how woosy I felt. No luck with sleep. By 3 I had worked myself up into a panic--it's not smart to think when your blood sugar is really low- nothing good ever comes of it. I didn't know what to do but lying there didn't seem like an option. Feeling like I was breaking THE LAW, I got up and had a glass of milk and a xanax, a last resort to fall asleep for at least two hours and to put a stop to my pounding heart and racing thoughts. I think I mananged to get one hour before 5 AM, when I get up.
I'd already decided somewhere in that stretch of a long night that this was not the way I wanted to spend my summer. WIth each day, my appetite for the narrow variety of veggies I eat became a little more dulled. I can only eat so much spaghetti squash and butter nut squash fries. The milk days were pretty grueling, still. And making 2 different meals for dinner wasn't much fun either. Dave was expressing interest in Atkins and remembering that I had lost 7 pounds doing that diet before this one, I made up my mind that that was more realistic for me. And with 2 weeks of the accudiet under my belt, literally, I felt ever so prepared to take that on and with due dilligence. It would seem like feasting compared to famine.
I wrote a note to my BEAD counselor right away, asking for help to transition and she sent me the protocol.
Today I ate about 900 calories, as opposed to about 400 for a milk day ---naturally I felt much better. It was all healthy, lo-carb food and even though I had zero sleep, I cleaned the house and went for a swim.
For dinner- I had an Atkins recipe -- low carb toriilla filled with spinach, mushroom, egg and 2 ounces of ham strips. Little bit of oil and red wine vinegar for dressing. My God, did it taste good! Didn't mind the sugarfree orange jello much after a meal like that. Ordered 2 new Atkins books online and am hoping and I can keep the pounds at bay that I just lost, and keep subtracting-- though albeit at a slower pace.
I honor all those who try the BEAD diet and win. It's a heck of a challenge. My 2 week- 10 pound weight loss was certainly a success as far as it went, and I learned plenty about myself and about food, shopping and being organized and committed. I still feel committed, just to a slower pace with more leeway, variety and control over options. The important thing will be not to get discouraged if a few pounds creep back on but hopefully, the BEADS have done some resetting of my set point and my labors in the kitchen and my detox from sugar and white flour willl stand me in good stead in the coming weeks.
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